Wednesday, December 19, 2012

What's in Your Name Quote

When someone tries to throw dirt on your name, speak falsely about you, and gather others up against you... Let them. What is in your name? Does your name tell people your heart? And are strangers worthy of explanations? And should what they think of you be of any concern when you know that you have done nothing wrong? These are questions I struggle with. But I want to personally thank every perso...n who has flicked dirt on my name. My flowers are being well fed so keep the verbal-manure and soiled-opinion-flinging coming. You only make me more wise and more beautiful.
Big shoutouts to those who have proven that they have no lives and have decided that my life is far more interesting. :). I'm flattered (c) Stephanie Josiah ♥

Exotic Flower Quote

Given the right environment and proper care... the rarest, most beautiful, and most fragile of flowers can flourish. Never dump your exotic flower seeds in the rubbish bin and expect a garden.
(c) Stephanie Josiah "Br()ken F()rtune C()()kie Jarg()n and Garbage Ju!ce

No Absolute Truth?

"Hold up, let me see if I understand this way of thinking: I've heard it argued that there is no absolute truth... But if the "truth" is that there is no absolute truth... How is it that you believe that... absolutely?" (c) Steph Josiah "Br()ken F()rtune C()()kie Jarg()n & Garbage Ju!ce

Monday, April 23, 2012

Relationship Advice 1:

Relationship Advice 1:

Well u better work it out, or it stays the same / doesn't matter if you left just as soon as came / if you're confused buy a vowel and get a clue/ because it's lonely living life not knowing it takes two - WURD... lol

"One Without the Other"

One Without the Other

Rain is good / but the sun is better / but you can't have flowers / without a drop of wetter / I'm feeling heavy some days / some days light as feathers / so when the sun hides her face I say "go on and let her" / you can't have rain without a little cloud / you can't enjoy silence without a little loud / you can't enjoy heat / unless you feel the chill / and you can't serve God and still serve your will.

~ Real talk mohawk Steph-nay Josiah 4/22/2012

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

"Only when the world..." Quote

"Only when the world is falling apart, do we realize that we never had the power to hold it together." (c) Stephanie Josiah 3/20/2012

Friday, February 10, 2012

Organized Crime

By: Stephanie Josiah 2/10/2012
“We don’t necessarily root for the bad guys in movies because they rob banks or pull off the most amazing heists and terrorize people.  But there is something commendable; there is something surprisingly good to be said about “ORGANIZED CRIME” because they WORK TOGETHER AS A TEAM.  They pull in people of all different walks of life and different abilities to carry out the mission.  Ocean’s Eleven, Twelve and Thirteen for example… I mean, these guys look amazing, they work together as an amazing team, and everyone is appreciated for what they bring to the table.  I wish that Christians worked together like that. More trust, less micromanagement.  I wish that ORGANIZED RELIGION could follow the “team mentality” of ORGANIZED CRIME LOL it’s sad, but if organized religion was organized we would spend far more time finding ways to work together than to drive people who are different, with different callings and abilities, away.” © Stephanie Josiah 2012

Friday, February 3, 2012

Remembering Who I am

Remembering who I am.

by Stephanie Josiah on Friday, August 21, 2009 at 4:31pm
Hey Everyone! :0)

I've been going through a rough patch with some in-laws and I will share with you what I am learning bit by bit.

I can't make everyone happy.
Some people will choose not to like me.
Some people will believe negative things about me.
I will face hard times.

BUT...

Happiness is over-rated (lol) it's fleeting, fickle, and depends upon so many things that are temporary and don't really fill me.
I want peace and joy, because peace is resting in God's hands no matter what my situation is and joy is not dependent upon whether or not life is going as I think it should. I may be sad sometimes and people may talk junk about me but where I am (in God's hands) MAN! You just can't beat that kind of joy!

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I admit that there is a little voice that tells me lies:
I am unlovable.
I am unworthy.
I am not good enough at...
I am depressed.

BUT...

God tells me:
I am His beloved.
I am so worth it that He gave His own son just so He could be with me.
I am good enough because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I'm not depressed - I'm just forgetful because this battle isn't mine and I am blessed!

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I'm going to have to remind myself of these truths every day perhaps... but thank you, God, that you don't mind helping me remember. I turned on the radio today and the song said, "I love you more than the sun and the stars that I taught how to shine, you are mine... ... I love you MORE!" And some kid spray painted the words "Don't" and "Hoping" above and below the word "Stop" on a stop sign so that it read, "Don't Stop Hoping." Who knew right? LOL I won't give up on myself because God is too good for me to give Him these lame excuses and pity parties. He told me I am victorious because I am HIS!

Just thought I'd share what I'm going through and what I'm learning. I hope that in sharing what I'm learning someone else can be blessed.

God loves you... and so do I!

~Steph

~ Spiritually UNfit ~

By Stephanie Josiah on Sunday, February 7, 2010 at 5:54pm
Friday night we watched The Book of Eli and last night we watched Luther (Movie about Martin Luther)

I couldn't fall asleep right after we watched Luther.

We prayed and then Ishmael fell asleep.

I kept tossing around and thinking about stuff and trying to analyze each thought that was just streaming into my brain, so I wrote it all down. I find that if I write it, I can sleep immediately afterwards.

Disclaimer: I believe the following to be words that God put on my heart and mind. I also believe that God says that if the following shoe does not fit... don't wear it :0) But I'm sure that all of us have at least some areas where we could improve.

What I wrote down early this morning:

~ Spiritually UNfit ~

We Christians of the western world
have become too pudgy around the midsection
not just physically
but too spiritually unfit to be believed

when we claim God as our king.
Knights going into battle require training
eating healthy - not over-indulging
in nutritional and moral excess.

We become too gross for our God
God is in shape
while we claim to be His followers,
His servants, victorious in Him -

we are overflowing not in the Holy Spirit
so much as we are up to our ears in waste.
We've outgrown our britches -
we've crammed down junk

a fast food nation of fast food Christians
searching for a summarized version of God Himself
in no greater than a one-hour-time-crunch slot!
We want God and we want Him now -

artificial flavoring included
and additives like material gain
sexual bliss, a bigger crown in this life than in
Heaven!

We feed on promises
snack foods called:
safety, freedom, comfort, wealth, and worst of all
our own ideas of righteousness

we wear righteousness as a title
but our books lack substance
the pages are blank
Jesus Christ was the only truly righteous man

and we believe that we deserve fates better
than His.
To be His true followers but have it easier than Him
To be loved by all

where He was hated by most
to be able to pass between God's will and
our own
when Christ remained only in God's will!

We believe that in all our consumerism-natured
living, we can buy our salvation
with false humility, false apology, and even more disgusting
false obedience

we feed on junk food and we
are what we eat
do we even know what we eat?
That hour long sermon is no substitute for

A life LIVED IN Christ!
A life spent in, DRENCHED IN God's Holy Word!
We want the quick meal
but I tell you this...

It is not a spoonful compared to the nutrition
that is in God's WORD.
Consume that! Buy into that!
Know what the pastor is saying before he even speaks!

That Sunday sermon is directed toward pre-Christians
that hour-long worship is an opportunity for the pre-Christian
to see a bit of what we should be doing the whole week!
We think we can live an eternal life based on an hour's worth of learning

per week! Funny and sad. No, mostly just sad!
We are supposed to be the proof that there is more
to this life than
just another fast food religion and half-hearted experience

toward a tombstone!
We cannot win people to Christ from our couches!
If we knew the Word of God and lived it....
ah, the rocks would never dare cry out in our place!

If we were truly God's army - we would look like soldiers
from the inside out - instead of being physically and spiritually
overloaded with junk.
If God sends in His best to fight - His best to go up against the opponent,


Western World Christians, we should consider ourselves benched.



Sincerely,




Stephanie Josiah
Written: February 7th, 2010 1:00AM

Words that have Power

By Stephanie Josiah on Tuesday, August 25, 2009 at 12:35pm
 
Ewww. LOL I hate it when it hits me just how wrong I've had it and then I feel this sense of "duh"..

I recently posted that I was in my car, crying like a baby, for a while - over what? I've been thinking about it and I realized that I was initially crying over the hurt I was feeling. But then, it got UGLY. You know about that? When the initial reaction is a harmless one but then the following reaction is one of pride and a desire to get even for the wrongdoing that you suffered? But, it's hitting me now that I was also shedding tears because I hated the amount of control these people had over how I felt and even worse, how I felt about myself. I hated that I ALLOWED these people to make me feel down about me.

I've come out of this stronger, realizing that I gave their thoughts and words about me too much power. I love it when people believe in me and acknowledge that I am a good person, good friend, good mom, good anything really. I may even depend on people thinking good about me... yeah, I count on other people's good feelings about me - I must. Because how else can I explain how I react when those same people are putting me down, there's a misunderstanding and they won't let me clear it up, there's a dispute and the people want to toss me aside like garbage and forget about me - it's like my whole world turns upside down and I get so angry that I feel almost as if I could self-combust.

These close-armed people. These sometimey people are just that... people. I know one person who is so the opposite of all those people. He never has His arms crossed toward me like, "no way, bub, get lost!" In fact He spread His arms as far open as He possibly could - just to tell me "I love you this much."

These rumor spreading people. These one-way-one-day and one-way-another people. We are all like that sometimes. These people may not have caught me in acting up THIS PARTICULAR TIME lol... but I am guilty of so much. (No confessions today, sorry folks LOL) But I mean, we all act up and we've probably all said something about somebody or to somebody that was painful. Our words can be so ugly and so spirit-killing, but we give people the power to kill our whole day! I know someone who spoke and gave us life, who spoke and healed the sick, who spoke and it was so, who spoke His love into us before we were even a twinkle in our parents' eyes. I need to stop giving power to words that create nothing and start realizing where the real words are!

I have been greedy. I wanted everyone in this world to love me like that. How should I think that it would go for me so smoothly, when the one who does fill us completely and does speak so fondly of us didn't have it that easy? I should just be grateful that these people notice me... My prayer is that I will be a 6ft tall, flashing, gleaming, UGLY, tacky, crazy, horrific, so horribly eye-catching, man "whatever it takes for them to notice me" sign with a huge arrow pointing right up at Jesus.

I can handle that :0) God says I can.

Love,

Steph

We're Gonna Need a Bigger Box!

WE'RE GONNA NEED A BIGGER BOX!

by Stephanie Josiah on Saturday, June 11, 2011 at 2:19pm
 
For some time it has been pressing on my mind, this image of God being this all powerful genie for us... We rub on the lamp with prayer and He rolls out like a puff of steam, appears, and grants us "these wishes three" and I laugh to myself.  I laugh because the very idea is crazy.
But boy do we think that we can trap Him... like an epic whale of a tale where we're all out on the sea to find Moby Dick so we can trap him in a perfume bottle!  What do you do with all the extra whale?  You might be able to fit a few teeth in the bottle, if the neck of the bottle isn't too thin, but what about the rest??!!  Crazy!

God is infinity times as wild and worlds, NO universes, more powerful... but how big is He?  Do you know?  I love it when we try to measure Him out in doses that we think people can take.  "Just a cup of God at a time, you don't want to overwhelm anyone".  Or what about the limitations we try to put on Him like, "There's no way that God could be this or do that in my life."   "There's no way that God could reach this person or that person."  There's no way that God could use this person or put this person at the right place at the right time."  These are all limitations that we try to put on Him, but who is really being limited?

If we struggle with the feeling that we aren't gifted enough or we don't have this or that in order to be used by God... wow, what a limitation we are putting on ourselves.  God could animate a huge rock, if He chose to, and have it do everything that He has called us to do, but He places even more faith in us than we do in Him.

We show a lack of faith in God when we over calculate, when we frustrate ourselves over the things that God can work out Himself.  We show a lack of faith when we convince ourselves that it is our job to jump into someone's soul and turn on a tea-light, or keep them awake during Sunday service.  It's like we're trying to reverse roles with God.  "Okay, God, you pop out and do something amazing that will touch somebody... oh but we got the rest of this covered.  We got a perfect line-up for today's service.  Song selections from the Top 10 Contemporary Gospel list... check.  The most talented singers or willing participants... check.  A moment for silence and reflection, coupled with a really sad and thought-provoking tune... check.  Lighting and special effects.... check!  And then, when we're ready for you, we'll pull you out of a hat like a rabbit and people will stand up and clap."  Who is God?  Did we think for a minute that He was us?  That the raising and guiding, and encouraging of His warriors was entirely up to us?  We are maybe raising and guiding, and encouraging the most highly entertained group of lackadaisical "warriors for some kind of kingdom" but I digress.

I was thinking about how 90% of most congregations in most church bodies are inactive (and that's an estimation, but you tell me what you think) and we would absolutely go deaf, dumb, and bald by stressing about how to get (not just some butts in some seats) but some really powerful people for the Kingdom of God.  The best of our abilities is great, but where our abilities may lack, we have to trust that God is not only picking up the slack, but He orchestrated the whole event.  We were placed in the right place, with the right message, with some of the right people in those seats (maybe not everyone was awake) but God is in every hiccup too.

Sure, we can pray that a baby won't interrupt the service with insane crying or that a cell phone won't ring and upset the crowd... but distractions are something to expect.  We cannot plan for every hiccup, they kinda just jump in and distract and somebody might choose to spend the rest of the service focusing on how the lighting or the music or the video or the singer with the low v-neck blouse was rudely offensive... but we kid ourselves if we think for one moment that the opinions of the inactive, low-interest level (unless it's to find fault with something and dwell on it for the entire service or longer) crowd are the catalysts in the chemical equation.

God is the Catalyst.  He cannot be changed.  We can change our approach, we can change our focus, we can change our mission statements, we can change our interests, we can even tune the whole thing out... but God is going to do the same thing every time and that is Change Lives.  We cannot do that job.  We cannot construct the perfect worship service, worship team, worship video, or prayer to fill all the seats with people who are on fire to LIVE the passion.  Worrying about time limits, attention deficits, distractions, technique to the degree that it "tries" to limit God, only limits ourselves and is a horrible testimony to others of the extent of our actual faith.

We cannot box God in.  We can maybe put up a lightning rod and direct some of the electricity to go in certain directions, but I guarantee you that His electricity, His power, His spirit is everywhere and in every thing.  In the quest to perfect ourselves... we are making our testimony of faith flawed.

God is not a genie in a bottle or a contortionist in a box, and if we try to force Him into these places, we'll find that we never really had Him at all.  Go ahead and try it... put Him in a box and then peek inside and tell me... "ISN'T THE BOX EMPTY?"

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

The Spiritual Assult on the UnOrdained

By: Stephanie Josiah 2-1-12

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You've heard it said from the pulpit
stand and be bold
but the truth is sticky
for the words unsaid are
"but don't stand against me"
even when in the wrong
the haughty pastor
flings his degrees and
his "Heavenly proof"
that he is the only one
running this tight ship
so walk the plank
tie bait to your legs and take the plunge
you scurvy dogs
you piss ons
you uneducated masses of would be heroes
you don't know enough about the Hebrew
translation for this word
or the Greek for that...
"Pastor, I don't need a translation for love
to know that you don't have it
or a translation for humble to know it's
what you aren't
or truth-telling
to know that you lied to me from the pulpit
every time you sparked that fire in me
those times you told me I could answer the call
those times you told me that I could be more than just
the person to swab the deck
I encourage you to remove the patches from your eyes
and that demon parrot from your shoulder
God is at the helm and you are two steps off
the plank"

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The Words We Don't Say

"The words we don't say, and the things we don't do define us just as much as what we do... don't fall silent when words count the most, and don't sit in the presence of injustice. Or you might as well define yourself as unjust!" (c) Stephanie Josiah 2012

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Butt Business

Funny Quote that I came up with when sharing how I stay getting in trouble on Facebook because people read how I honestly feel in a note, or on my blog and then they get their panties all up in a wad over it.  But come on now, why'd you take the time to read how I felt then?  You went out of your way to find a reason to get mad about something I've said or done.  LOL no lives!
 
So this is the edited version of what I said to Adrian about these "people".
 
 
"people like to dig in my (butt) and complain about the (poop) on their finger...
it's like 'well get the (mess) out my (butt) then!"